Because I'm the mom.....

I taught myself to crochet.  I'm not great at it.  I very often read a pattern and start a project and realize that I'm doing my own thing!  IF I put that project down for more than a month, I almost never can figure out how what I did to create the current look.  All that said, I really enjoy making something out of nothing.  I'm not sure if others enjoy my gifts as much as I enjoy giving them, but it makes me happy! Once I read a pattern for an afghan and I was really excited to make it.  I had been working on it for days and someone who KNEW what they were doing commented on how unusual this blanket was.  It was literally two sided.  Two completely different patterns on each side.  It was the coolest mistake.  Sadly, I put it down for a long period of time, and I haven't been able to figure out WHAT on earth I did to make it so amazing.  So i have like a third of a blanket.  Ugh. Right now crocheting is my stress relief....

I work for an online line school.  We have what they call "education zones" for students to have a place to come work out of to get extra help or just meet up with peers.  When I interviewed for this job, I was asked if I wanted to work with middle school or high school.  Do you know my my crazy self requested????  Yep......middle school!  😜 Why or why would anyone make that choice?  Middle school kids are just coming into puberty.  They are moody.  They don't know that they are wrong.   They seldom think through what they do.  Did I mention moody?  I love this age group (most of the time).  lol I'm the site coordinator.  I'm still not sure of what it is that I'm supposed to do. lol  I basically run our building.  I make sure we have supplies.  I am the "gate keeper" of the building reminding people to sign in and making sure they are signed out.  I get there early and open up the building and...

The phrase that became crazy popular due to the TLC show "Say Yes to the Dress".   I said "yes" over a year ago.  I bought the dress, and haven't looked at it since. Today I pull my dress out and put it on and still love it, but realize that when I bought my dress I had a different wedding in my head.  I was going to have a beach wedding and choose this for the ease of walking across the sand.  It's simple and beautiful. Fast forward a year and now I'm having a Christmas wedding in Colorado....not a beach wedding in the middle of the day.  Will my dress work?  Will it still be perfect? Yes.  I believe it can still be the "perfect" dress, but my mindset has to change a little.  What I was envisioned isn't the reality now. Isn't it funny that it's exactly like life?!  We see our job, or our partner, or our lives in a certain way and when life takes us down a different path, a new reality, we sometimes think that nothing is rig...

Have you ever stopped to really think about how blessed you are?  I mean really think about it!  Do you get it?  Do you really get it? In the United States pretty much all the population is blessed as compared to other parts of the work.  Most of the population has a house, and car, and food on the table.  Then on top of that most of us have cell phones, and computers, and we eat out and....and....and.....  Even with all that,  many of us feel like we aren't as well off as the guy next door.  However, can you see that we really are blessed? Me?  I'm so amazingly blessed.   I've lived a life that has had its ups and downs, but it's been a very good life.  I have experienced travel all over the world, and hope to do much more of that in the coming years.   I've had the most incredible children.  All so very different, but all have big hearts.  I've had the good fortune to have many many different types of ...

Today my work family and I had the chance to do some team building fun.  I know that a lot of people cringe when they here "team building".  What does that even mean? We had one of our staff members who specializes in that come in and spend some time with us.  We did some fun activities where we did....gasp......ice breaker questions.  It was GREAT.  These weren't typical questions and even though most of us have been together for around a year or getting close to it, it gave some real insight into who each of us was. We did a rope activity and it caused us to all really stop and think outside the box.  And after some hints....I figured out how "escape" my partner.  :) One of the best team building activities was when we all took these picture postcards and we were supposed to pick one that "spoke" to us and then explain to the team why.  Some picked pictures because they thought they were "pretty" or reminded them of family or somethin...

After such a down post yesterday I decided I really needed to lighten things up! So we are in the midst of planning our wedding.  As I mentioned in a previous post, I really want to have what I want, but I don't want to spend much to get it.  lol I've been calling hotels, conference centers, and other building spaces that might work for our big day!  It's exciting as we talk about what we want from that day.  I want to have the ceremony and reception in the same location.  I want it to be beautifully decorated.  I want it to be a lot of things, expensive not being one of them. Do you know that no matter what type of hall or building you look at, it's ALL costly.  And if you find one that isn't that expensive by the time you figure in your rentals and such it now is crazy!  lol But I refuse to stress about what I can't control.  No matter what we choose or where it is, it will be amazing because it's my wedding!  And I'm being giv...

I was in college and on my way home to visit my family.  My car broke down on a mountain pass and the events that followed changed my life forever.  I won't go into any details, but at the age of 19 I was raped.  It has forever changed and scarred who I was as a person. My car was repaired the next day and I went back to my apartment and pretended it never happened.  I buried as deep as I could.  Pretending it never happened.  I was young and a fool and believed the threats that had been told to me. A few months later over Christmas break I had an accident and was able to quit college and move because of my injury.  I thought maybe a "fresh" start somewhere would "fix" me.  Bury it...... A year after my rape I finally found myself dealing with depression and unable to cope with the pressures of going back to school.  I finally broke down and told my mom.  My parents were devastated.  And now on top of my trauma I also had guil...